Hi ladies, Let me start off by saying that I am grateful for everything I have. Thank God I have a job, a loving Family, great friends and a Birkin for the first time at the ripe old age of 37 (well, not for too long!) So the fact that I feel down is completely due to a superficial reason (sorry, , but what can I say - I do...) I bought my second ever H bag, a blue jean Evelyne GM very recently. I love that bag and you wouldn't believe how much attention (and not necessarily the good kind, quite a lot of the bad, jealous kind) it has attracted. The style is very functional and I have been in love with the bj colour for many years. If I weren't a banker, my first Birkin would have been blue jean, not black. I got the evelyne to itch my blue jean scratch, if you remember. I still cannot stop dreaming about a bj birkin with gold hardware, though. It's like a fixation that wouldn't go away. I really really do want one, but I cannot afford to buy so many H bags in such a short period of time and have already ordered a 35cm etoupe Kelly for the February podium (another great work bag for me). Still, I am dying for a bj with gh... Should I have saved the evelyne money towards another Birkin I wonder - but the evelyne is a great bag, great value, so functional and I love it too. I know I can order one after I get the Kelly sometime in the second half of next year, but I simply cannot feel a bit angry with myself for still aching for that bag after getting the bj evelyne. I know this is a completely superficial thing to feel a bit down about, but this is the only group where I can share my H-related woes and not be afraid that I'll be judged. Thanks for reading.