I have a passion and a true love for fashion. I love having nice things. I love my shoes and designer clothing and purses. LOVE LOVE LOVE them! I have been browsing on this forum for a few days now and all the pictures I see, everyone looks so chic and beautiful and put together. Just stunning! I sit here and look at myself. I am easily 50 pounds overweight. I am still nursing my baby, so my body has a very hard time letting go of the weight. I hate the way clothing fits me right now and I refuse to buy any nice outfits in the size I am currenty wearing now. I feel fat and frumpy and disheveled. I rarely put makeup on when I go out and sometimes I get so down on myself that I will go to the market in sweats and not think twice about it. I have 3 boys and I know I should not get so down on my appearance, but I just wish I could motivate myself and get into shape and become that beautiful woman I see so often posting on here. I want to be chic and instyle and fashionable and happy to post pictures of myself. I want to be secure about my looks and weight. I just feel yucky about myself. So I am wondering if anyone else feels the way I do? I just need some motivation I guess. I am so unmotivated but at the same time, I am so upset with how out of control I have gotten. It depresses me and turns into a vicious cycle. It is so hard not to get wrapped up in the hype of wanting to be thin and beautiful. I guess I am not sure what I am looking for by posting this, but if you have made it this far, thank you so much for reading.