I have dozens of friends. I mean it. People I really love. But why do I LOVE to be on this forum? I love my friends so much but what does this say about me that I love spending time with all of you and blew out one of my best friends last night at a party she invited me to? Am I becoming a hermit? Do I just miss my husband and I'm covering up depression? I feel like I can talk about the same crap with you that I'm gonna talk about at a party from the comfort of my own home with you guys and have a glass of wine while doing it. And I don't have to get dressed up and put on make up! (although I love doing that!) Am I a total loser now? I used to be so social. Is this just a sign of the times? I think knowing that we want to get together in person once in a while makes me feel a little better that we are not totally insane. Anyone who reads this, just thanks for reading it. I'm drinking Chardonnay, feeling sorry for myself and about to start my period. (sorry Vlad) p.s. we need an emoticon for "sorry Vlad"!