i need some help. i want to suiside

ChloeSS · Dec 15th, 2007, 04:26 PM

sad story..

together with my bf for 8 yrs, uncover he has an affair.. for 3 yrs. i broke up with him. i wasnt that hurt that time and he was begging me back.

then a few weeks later, he suddenly came back to me and said all the bad words like i wasted his time, he never happy with me for 8 yrs. He is more happy to be single than with me.. and he never admit the affair, he said it is OUR problem, thats no third person involve in our relationship

He told me forget the history as it means nothing and I should never find him or talk to him as he gets annoy about me all the time..

He was a sweet heart before I uncover the affair.. we even talked about marriage and future. how can someone became another person in 2 weeks time??

i am very down and my life is empty. this is sunday morning and i am alone at my house and today is my bf's birthday. I dont know what to do..

biggestbaglover · Dec 15th, 2007, 04:47 PM

I think that you need to talk to a professional about this. If you are seriously depressed and considering such a drastic option, you need to talk to someone with experience in this area. I see that you are from New Zealand and found this information for you. It is a suicide help line. Give them a call and talk to the professionals.
Lifeline Auckland
PO Box 74 010
Market Road
5
AUCKLAND
Helpline 1: (09) 522 2999

ChloeSS · Dec 15th, 2007, 04:50 PM

thank you

ChloeSS · Dec 15th, 2007, 04:50 PM

i am so lost about myself.. i hate myself.. and i hate myself never let go..

why someone i loved so much has be hurt me so bad as a return? and never cares about me anymore as a person or friend?

boxermom · Dec 15th, 2007, 04:52 PM

As much as it hurts right now, this is temporary. Call the number listed above. Right now! (((hugs)))

boxermom · Dec 15th, 2007, 04:55 PM

Chloe, did you call that number?

YOU are not the reason he hurt you. HE is the one responsible, but he's a coward and so he blames you. You don't have to accept that.

You need experts helping you right now. Get on the phone and call.

Hermesmerized · Dec 15th, 2007, 04:56 PM

Chloe, I know that you are feeling great sadness and pain. This is understandable after everything that you have been through. It is now a time for you to feel anger and grief. Please try to hold on to the knowledge that this incredible hurt that you are feeling will lessen with time.
It is o.k. to feel anger and betrayal,please do not try to hurt yourself.
You must try to reach out to your friends and family or a suicide hotline. Do you have a church that you belong to? If so the members there will support you and listen.
Your heart is broken now and some dreams have been shattered,you must now summon all of your strength to get through this.
Stay posting on this forum,the members here will try to help you through this. You are not alone!

ChloeSS · Dec 15th, 2007, 04:58 PM

i didnt call the hotline.. maybe i should calm down.. before i was so upset as i am alone at home without any support , I tried to talk to my friend but its a bit too early to call for sunday.

I cannot face the fact that he left. he left in that way.. just disappear forever..

never miss me or never contact me again anymore.. all our plan has been cancelled.. and seems like I am the only person who upset about that.

Hermesmerized · Dec 15th, 2007, 05:01 PM

Chloe is this the first boyfriend and long relationship you have had?

Do you work or go to school?

ChloeSS · Dec 15th, 2007, 05:03 PM

yes this is the longest/ serious relationship i had..

I am working but today is Sunday morning.. my boss knew i've been very depress and it's been almost 1 month.. remember the last 3 weeks i am all confused cos I am not quite sure what kind of relationship are we... but up to last week, we have a clear broke up.. and end of the story

I've been with this man for 8 yrs and i throught i know him so well but the fact is not. he just became a stranger to me..

I had quite a bit of friends who support me when it started but overtime ppl assume u will get better and not care as much as before..

My emotional is up and down.. sometimes i knew... this is a good break as he is so irresponsible and he is not a good lover/ husband.. but sometimes.. I just cannot control myself and crazily miss him.

ohdahling · Dec 15th, 2007, 05:06 PM

Please ring the number. You need to talk to someone about this if your feeling so low.

All the best chloe.

((((((((hugs))))))))

aine1313 · Dec 15th, 2007, 05:06 PM

Have you any girlfriends or sister/brother you could call to come over and talk with you or sit with you? Give your doctor a call right now.We all care about you.

rainrowan · Dec 15th, 2007, 05:12 PM

Stay on this forum and talk. Are you staying in touch with your family as well? Please do that.

Do not allow this guy to break your heart, it is not worth it. He is ashamed you caught him in the affair but he is angry with being found out and will not admit anything. He was very mean to say those things to you. He is trying to make you feel bad but it is his fault, not yours.

It hurts very much now but you will be okay soon again. You have to take good care of yourself, and do not let your heart be broken again by this guy. You are a lovely person ChloeSS and deserve to be happy.

biggestbaglover · Dec 15th, 2007, 05:13 PM

Chloe

I want to urge you once again to call the help line. The people there are professionals who will be able to listen and support you in the best way possible. THEY are the people that you really need to talk to. Please phone them.

Hermesmerized · Dec 15th, 2007, 05:14 PM

I think that you are telling us that deep in your heart you knew that this man is not going to fullfill all of your needs and be responsible to you? I think that you are saying that you know in your heart that this break up is necessary?

It is very painful to end relationships. It sounds like you have some good friends that you can rely on.

I think you should phone the hotline. It really helps having someone listen to you and give you support.
The members here will help you too.

Dec 15th, 2007, 04:26 PM	#1
ChloeSS Member Location: Sydney	i need some help. i want to suiside sad story.. together with my bf for 8 yrs, uncover he has an affair.. for 3 yrs. i broke up with him. i wasnt that hurt that time and he was begging me back. then a few weeks later, he suddenly came back to me and said all the bad words like i wasted his time, he never happy with me for 8 yrs. He is more happy to be single than with me.. and he never admit the affair, he said it is OUR problem, thats no third person involve in our relationship He told me forget the history as it means nothing and I should never find him or talk to him as he gets annoy about me all the time.. He was a sweet heart before I uncover the affair.. we even talked about marriage and future. how can someone became another person in 2 weeks time?? i am very down and my life is empty. this is sunday morning and i am alone at my house and today is my bf's birthday. I dont know what to do..

Dec 15th, 2007, 04:47 PM	#2
biggestbaglover Member	Re: i need some help. i want to suiside I think that you need to talk to a professional about this. If you are seriously depressed and considering such a drastic option, you need to talk to someone with experience in this area. I see that you are from New Zealand and found this information for you. It is a suicide help line. Give them a call and talk to the professionals. Lifeline Auckland PO Box 74 010 Market Road 5 AUCKLAND Helpline 1: (09) 522 2999

Dec 15th, 2007, 04:50 PM	#3
ChloeSS Member Location: Sydney	Re: i need some help. i want to suiside thank you

Dec 15th, 2007, 04:50 PM	#4
ChloeSS Member Location: Sydney	Re: i need some help. i want to suiside i am so lost about myself.. i hate myself.. and i hate myself never let go.. why someone i loved so much has be hurt me so bad as a return? and never cares about me anymore as a person or friend?

Dec 15th, 2007, 04:52 PM	#5
boxermom Member Location: North Carolina	Re: i need some help. i want to suiside As much as it hurts right now, this is temporary. Call the number listed above. Right now! (((hugs)))

Dec 15th, 2007, 04:55 PM	#6
boxermom Member Location: North Carolina	Re: i need some help. i want to suiside Chloe, did you call that number? YOU are not the reason he hurt you. HE is the one responsible, but he's a coward and so he blames you. You don't have to accept that. You need experts helping you right now. Get on the phone and call.

Dec 15th, 2007, 04:56 PM	#7
Hermesmerized Sofa King Banned	Re: i need some help. i want to suiside Chloe, I know that you are feeling great sadness and pain. This is understandable after everything that you have been through. It is now a time for you to feel anger and grief. Please try to hold on to the knowledge that this incredible hurt that you are feeling will lessen with time. It is o.k. to feel anger and betrayal,please do not try to hurt yourself. You must try to reach out to your friends and family or a suicide hotline. Do you have a church that you belong to? If so the members there will support you and listen. Your heart is broken now and some dreams have been shattered,you must now summon all of your strength to get through this. Stay posting on this forum,the members here will try to help you through this. You are not alone!

Dec 15th, 2007, 04:58 PM	#8
ChloeSS Member Location: Sydney	Re: i need some help. i want to suiside i didnt call the hotline.. maybe i should calm down.. before i was so upset as i am alone at home without any support , I tried to talk to my friend but its a bit too early to call for sunday. I cannot face the fact that he left. he left in that way.. just disappear forever.. never miss me or never contact me again anymore.. all our plan has been cancelled.. and seems like I am the only person who upset about that.

Dec 15th, 2007, 05:01 PM	#9
Hermesmerized Sofa King Banned	Re: i need some help. i want to suiside Chloe is this the first boyfriend and long relationship you have had? Do you work or go to school?

Dec 15th, 2007, 05:03 PM	#10
ChloeSS Member Location: Sydney	Re: i need some help. i want to suiside yes this is the longest/ serious relationship i had.. I am working but today is Sunday morning.. my boss knew i've been very depress and it's been almost 1 month.. remember the last 3 weeks i am all confused cos I am not quite sure what kind of relationship are we... but up to last week, we have a clear broke up.. and end of the story I've been with this man for 8 yrs and i throught i know him so well but the fact is not. he just became a stranger to me.. I had quite a bit of friends who support me when it started but overtime ppl assume u will get better and not care as much as before.. My emotional is up and down.. sometimes i knew... this is a good break as he is so irresponsible and he is not a good lover/ husband.. but sometimes.. I just cannot control myself and crazily miss him.

Dec 15th, 2007, 05:06 PM	#11
ohdahling Member Location: UK	Re: i need some help. i want to suiside Please ring the number. You need to talk to someone about this if your feeling so low. All the best chloe. ((((((((hugs)))))))) __________________ Check out my blog right...->HERE<-

Dec 15th, 2007, 05:06 PM	#12
aine1313 Member	Re: i need some help. i want to suiside Have you any girlfriends or sister/brother you could call to come over and talk with you or sit with you? Give your doctor a call right now.We all care about you.

Dec 15th, 2007, 05:12 PM	#13
rainrowan INFJ	Re: i need some help. i want to suiside Stay on this forum and talk. Are you staying in touch with your family as well? Please do that. Do not allow this guy to break your heart, it is not worth it. He is ashamed you caught him in the affair but he is angry with being found out and will not admit anything. He was very mean to say those things to you. He is trying to make you feel bad but it is his fault, not yours. It hurts very much now but you will be okay soon again. You have to take good care of yourself, and do not let your heart be broken again by this guy. You are a lovely person ChloeSS and deserve to be happy.

Dec 15th, 2007, 05:13 PM	#14
biggestbaglover Member	Re: i need some help. i want to suiside Chloe I want to urge you once again to call the help line. The people there are professionals who will be able to listen and support you in the best way possible. THEY are the people that you really need to talk to. Please phone them.

Dec 15th, 2007, 05:14 PM	#15
Hermesmerized Sofa King Banned	Re: i need some help. i want to suiside I think that you are telling us that deep in your heart you knew that this man is not going to fullfill all of your needs and be responsible to you? I think that you are saying that you know in your heart that this break up is necessary? It is very painful to end relationships. It sounds like you have some good friends that you can rely on. I think you should phone the hotline. It really helps having someone listen to you and give you support. The members here will help you too. Last edited by Hermesmerized; Dec 15th, 2007 at 05:16 PM.