This is kinda long but...here I go......hope I dont sound too crazy......
In a Art history class that I am currently attending...we are studying egyptian art.....about a week ago, the teacher was discussing the Scarab and its signaficance....he said that it symbolized the beetles behavior to the sun god and that it was sacared because of this connection.....well, out of the blue...I wispered...thats not true, thats not fully what it meant...
I was stunned at myself for a moment...then came home and did some research....and I was right...it meant different things and the part he described was only a small part of its symbolism.....
Then, that night...I had a dream that I was in egypt, in a small room with three guards that had kneeled in one corner of this room....well...when the two other left, I went over to the third and kissed him......I could feel this passion and inhabition of this action so clearly.....(I clearly felt that I was waiting...but for what or whom, I didnt get...I felt like I was a worker to the royal or elite but dont know what or why....I did feel heaviness on the top of my head and something was making me balance it but dont know what.....)
This is not how I would of acted, but more importantly, I felt all the feeling of that moment....I felt sooo different in my perception and actions than how I am now, the state of mind was sooo different.....it was like I was so focused and very sure of myself but lacked some of the personality traits that I posess now...thats the best I can describe it......
I cant shake that feeling and that event...I want to know more but dont know if this is just all in my head or what....
Then my answer was just to order a jewlery in the scarab motiff to validate that connection to my past....its really a weird feeling....