[twiggers]

Another secret:

I have been seeing my boyfriend for 6 years, we met at university and we love each other very much..........BUT.......My family dont know about us and neither do his. We see each other every day for lunch and meet once a week to dine etc.

In october this year i became pregnant, i was sick all the time and hated it..................after 8 weeks i miscarried. Thankfully i was with him at the time and we got through it (just about). Nobody knows about this but i am secretly glad that i didn't have the baby. My family has chosen a man for me to marry, i am trying to work the courage to tell them about my BF.

last December on Christmas day by BF's mother died, i couldn't be with him to console him and it breaks my heart that he will be all alone on her anniversary.

[ahs483]

thanks Twiggers!!

[twiggers]

Originally Posted by twiggers

Another secret:

I have been seeing my boyfriend for 6 years, we met at university and we love each other very much..........BUT.......My family dont know about us and neither do his. We see each other every day for lunch and meet once a week to dine etc.

In october this year i became pregnant, i was sick all the time and hated it..................after 8 weeks i miscarried. Thankfully i was with him at the time and we got through it (just about). Nobody knows about this but i am secretly glad that i didn't have the baby. My family has chosen a man for me to marry, i am trying to work the courage to tell them about my BF.

last December on Christmas day by BF's mother died, i couldn't be with him to console him and it breaks my heart that he will be all alone on her anniversary.

Just sending great big huge hugs your way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We're thinking of you!

[Label Addict]

Originally Posted by twiggers

Another secret:

when i was 15 i was just an awkward and unpopular girl no one really paid much attention to, and i kind of liked it that way. a boy started to pay attention to me. he wasn't just any boy, he was blond, 18, sweet, and captain of the soccer team. basically: sought after. i often caught him looking at me and he sent his friends to talk to me. i ignored them and pretended not to notice. i was scared. i was too embarassed to even tell my childhood best friend. i couldn't be sure it was for real, what would someone like that want with me? he tried to talk to me himself, he even once cut three classes hanging around the nurse's office when i was there sick. he seemed shy , like me. but was insecure as hell and i acted like a bitch. i just kept up my act. he must have gotten the idea. after a while he gave up.

i could never tell anyone that almost exactly ten years since the last time i saw this boy whom i never even really talked to, i still think about him almost everyday. i just turned 25 and no man who has shown interest in me since (and there haven't been many) has been even remotely as attractive or sweet as i remember this boy. most of these men end up being lazy, indifferent and unambitious once i get to know them. i really hate dating. i can't know for sure what the attention was really about back in high school. but i like to pretend that it was for real. it is my only shred of hope that i actually am worthy of attention from a certain kind of man and that the caliber of man i might want isn't out of my league. i could never tell anyone about this. i would feel so juvenile, obsessive, and immature.

i regret so badly that i responded like i did when i was 15. i will always wonder what would have happened if i had just responded better. when i can't sleep, i fantasize about running into this boy now and him recognizing me after so many years.
i have no hopes for anything in real life. but i refuse to let these memories and fantasies go. i don't want to think how badly i would feel about myself if i didn't have them.

I hope I'm not overstepping here (it doesn't say don't comment) why not consider looking the guy up on myspace/facebook/friend reunited etc who know's perhaps it will give you the strength to move on or perhaps you'll find your soul mate you knows but life is unpredictable it's worth the chance

[ohdahling]

What a fabulous thread.
It just really shows absolutely nobody is perfect, and maybe it's weird but I find that reassuring.
Thank you all for sharing your secrets.
xxx

[twiggers]

Another Secret:

Im crying now Here is my secrect. My boss is totally selfish and making me depressed, I work on my days off and answer her calls at 10 pm to help her with her work, Im new in my company and want to do well. When I need help with something she is never there for me and says she is stressed out and totally overwhelmed and has no time to talk. I have done so many things for her that she is keeping from her boss,I was fired from my last job because off my last boss personally didnt like me and have fear to say no. Im also very depressed because I recently gained so much weight and no clothes fit me, I have a binge eating disorder , this pains me to say, I have been on a diet now and im scared to eat , my relationship with my SO suffers from me always being depressed and feeling low. Some days like today I feel like just giving up, my heart hurts so much.

[twiggers]

Originally Posted by twiggers

Another Secret:

Im crying now Here is my secrect. My boss is totally selfish and making me depressed, I work on my days off and answer her calls at 10 pm to help her with her work, Im new in my company and want to do well. When I need help with something she is never there for me and says she is stressed out and totally overwhelmed and has no time to talk. I have done so many things for her that she is keeping from her boss,I was fired from my last job because off my last boss personally didnt like me and have fear to say no. Im also very depressed because I recently gained so much weight and no clothes fit me, I have a binge eating disorder , this pains me to say, I have been on a diet now and im scared to eat , my relationship with my SO suffers from me always being depressed and feeling low. Some days like today I feel like just giving up, my heart hurts so much.

HUGS HUGS and more HUGS!!!! I am soooooo sorry you are in pain!!!!!!

[ahertz]

Originally Posted by Label Addict

I hope I'm not overstepping here (it doesn't say don't comment) why not consider looking the guy up on myspace/facebook/friend reunited etc who know's perhaps it will give you the strength to move on or perhaps you'll find your soul mate you knows but life is unpredictable it's worth the chance

I was JUST going to say this. Only one of two things will happen and either way, it will set you free. I looked up an ex once who I had romanticized for years. He's not such a great catch and it really helped me focus on the people I was meeting.

[Luva Pug]

Wow, amazing thread! I just want to say how great it is that people feel that they can share their secrets. Hugs to everyone who is feeling down, good vibes are being sent your way xx

Thanks Naomi! You seriously are an angel xx

[twiggers]

Some last secrets before bed:

I really wish you had saved your virginity. It disconcerts me to think of giving you oral sex when I know that some other guy's penis has been there before...

[twiggers]

Another:

I have a wonderful but scary secret to share: I'm PREGNANT!!! Because my family is traditional, my husband and I won't tell anyone (including family) until after the 1st trimester. But I just found out last week and I can't bear to keep it in any longer!

This is my third pregnancy--the first two ending up in miscarriage. I'm trying not to be scared this time because I've had multiple tests that say I'm just fine and should be able to carry a child no problem.

So ladies, please send your good vibes and hopefully in a few months we'll be chatting about the best diaper bags money can buy.

[twiggers]

Another:

Our entire family has been estranged from my Dad's mother (my grandmother) for over 20 years. She is unstable and made my Mom's life hell for years. My father finally cut off contact with her after she wrote me a really nasty letter right before I graduated from college. I'd decided not to go to my graduation (I was already working and just didn't want to deal with the formality) and she thought we were lying about me not going thru the ceremony to get out of inviting her. This was not true although she was a pain in the ass. My Dad had put up with her shit for years and when she attacked me that was it for him. He told her he never wanted to see or speak to her again. This lady is still alive and in her late 80s now. My Dad was an only child and he died a few years ago. She doesn't even know her son is dead. She is also very rich. Before this all happened I was the one she was leaving all her money to. She still lives in the same place and I often wish I could go to visit her. There are a lot of things I don't understand about her relationship with my Dad and I think she deserves to know he died. I can't do this because my Mom hates her, and I don't blame her. This old witch boycotted my parents wedding after throwing a fit over the color of her corsage. It only got worse from there. But I do confess that I would like that money. Seems like justice for all the pain she's caused, I know it sounds greedy but I think about it all the time. I wonder if she's changed her will?

[twiggers]

And the last one tonight:

My husband has a half brother that is 10 years older than him who is on death row for murder. We did not know this guy even existed until about ten years ago. Turns out my DH's mother had a baby boy and gave him up for adoption before she met and married my DH's father and had DH and his siblings. This baby boy was adopted and grew up in another state. About 20 years ago he raped and murdered a young child (DNA proved he did it). We only found out about this when his lawyers started his appeal and unsealed the adoption records and tracked us down. His lawyers are trying to mount an insanity defense for him based on DH's mother being 'mentally unstable', which is total bullshit. The bio father's name was not on this guy's birth certificate so we have no idea who he was (under father it says Illegitimate/Unknown) and DH's mom is dead so we can't ask her. I guess it's good she's not alive to see this. She hid this baby she gave up from everyone, including the man she later married, my father in law. Imagine the shock we all experienced finding out about this, especially my father in law who is elderly. No family should have to go through this so a cold blooded killer can get an appeal. There is also chance my DH and his siblings may get dragged into court over this issue since they refuse to cooperate with his lawyers who want questions answered about my deceased MIL's mental health during her life. If it happens we plan to take the story national, so you may be seeing us on Dateline someday if that happens.

[twiggers]

Originally Posted by twiggers

Another:

I have a wonderful but scary secret to share: I'm PREGNANT!!! Because my family is traditional, my husband and I won't tell anyone (including family) until after the 1st trimester. But I just found out last week and I can't bear to keep it in any longer!

This is my third pregnancy--the first two ending up in miscarriage. I'm trying not to be scared this time because I've had multiple tests that say I'm just fine and should be able to carry a child no problem.

So ladies, please send your good vibes and hopefully in a few months we'll be chatting about the best diaper bags money can buy.

*HUGS* *HUGS* and more *HUGS* I wish you the very very very very best and hope everything goes well!!!!! Stay healthy and take care of yourself!!!! I can't wait to see your formal announcement in the near future!!!!!

[Megs]

I absolutely love this thread!! And I like the notion that if you don't want people to read, you say NO RESPONSE. That is great!!

Hope this is a nice outlet for many of us!